Its been awhile since I've been here to write some more thoughts.. Ive been logging those thoughts, well some of them..
My life takes 2 or 3 streams, each one I'm traversing over and back to try and control where I'm going. So much going on and everynight my head is just bedazzled filled with joy worry and sorrow. I've always been the person to let what happens happens, not think of consequences just do it.. Here's a preview of after 8 week (a few weeks back)
So finally I've taken control of some of my life, well one part thats bothered me for years, I'm becoming thin.. I've tried a lot but failed a lot. never getting near it but always further away from my goal.. Always with same stupid attitude, Ill live my life the best I can and let what happens happen.. this time its different, I'm focused, Im strict and Im getting there.. the goal is in sight and can't wait to be there.. its been hellish and tough but Im making the most of it. I've impressed myself, impresses and shown me what im capable of. I reckon 7 weeks more and im at goal.. never tought id be thin again but im gettin there.. omg!
I have a diary of the past few months and Ill put it up here at some stage.. its an interesting diet.. will write all when im off it. but now I'm starting to see som clarity.. wish my whole life was less hazy.. so much stuff I need to sort out yet.. stuff Im leaving so long I think its getting close to being un sortable.. Before Easter I hope life will be a bright brand new morning!!
Ciao
