Just A Smalltown Man

Little something after that post.. If I actually concentrated on family friends love and work now I wouldnt be thinking about all of this.. I am happy when I'm doing all that.. and reaching goals!

Note to self...Need to stop taking time off

Dont stop believin
Hold on to the feelin
Streetlight people

Life is an ocean, Love is a boat

A day off to do nothing doesn't come too often, I've got 2.. So far I've spent it wallowing, listening to music, sorting photos and lots and lots of thinking. Thinking about life goals... What are they what order should they be in, I don't know..

Goals (in no particular order)

• Love. Find someone to spend rest of my life with.
• Family. See them as much as possible.
• Work. Be the best I can be. Make enough money to live a good life.
• Travel. See everything I possibly can before I regret it.
• Friends. Be there for them, through thick and thin
• Me. Continually trying to improve me, learn from mistakes.

How do you order them? how do you know what to concentrate on even if it could hinder/ruin others.

At the moment I'm nowhere near the level I want to be with any of them, and am contemplating just moving to concentrate on one or two and hopefully building everything around it. 

Family+Me>Friends+Me>Love+Me>Work+Me>Travel + me me me me me...

Why am I here then if work is number 4, family some friends and potential love is elsewhere.. But then if I move home I may not have a job and that'll also make me miserable.. So how about I just travel, forget about everything else for awhile to put it all in perspective. That's looking the most likely.. Christ I'm confused.. 

I'm only a man
In a funny red sheet
I'm only a man
Looking for a dream

Worth some more thinking by the looks of things. I have time, lots of it.. but want to be fully happy again.. I'd take 3-4 out of the 5 above but what are goals if you don't want to fulfill them all. I DON'T WANT TO BE A FAILURE!!!

Moments like these

What would you do? What would you say?
Would you walk - or would you run away?

Hey, put on a smilin' face

Need to write, or type in this new age, or else I'm going to forget what I feel at any point in time.

People ask me questions about the past, what was I going through, how did it affect me, what did I feel, did I learn anything from it.. and the truth is... I can't remember.. Its not that I've a bad memory.. its just my open mind and closed being.. I'm easy..

Oh Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down

So, how do I put this.. I'm always happy, sometimes sad.. so a lot  of times ok.. I sometimes complain but prefer to help.. Like to be important but more important to be like. Fail at that sometimes, not on purpose I just get sidetracked.. I have morals but not tight enough, I'll almost always lose an argument, it rarely bothers me.. why so many contradictions? will it or even has it affected perception and how I'll be remembered in years to come. 

I will be remembered.. for a lot of different things by a lot of different people, sometime changing, mostly reaching the same good conclusion.. but there are always the few who think otherwise.. changing my course in life.. travelling on the rough gravel, every bump knocking more wind out of the sails.. but not for long... cos there's always happiness in my life...

I'm sleepy now, and need to pack.... time to finish this up... So when I read back on this next time will it remind me of how I felt.. not fully but its a start..

I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue